Art Forever

thebloodyconspiracy asked: i love your art and i find you so inspiring!! how are you able to balance free time, friends, school, and drawing??

Ahhh, thank you! .///. And… Oh gosh.  Well… in theory, I can always work those things around.  In practice, well…

Okay let’s pretend it works in practice first. XD

So I don’t know how often I mention it, but I’m actually majoring in Media Arts and Animation.  Also I’m 22, if anyone finds this more relevant.  For one thing, I am absolutely in love with animation.  Like if there is anywhere I can marry the concept and field, please let me know, I would like to propose to animation and make it official.

So the bulk of my free time is actually spent drawing.  I find it very enjoyable.  Otherwise, I’ll step away to play some video games or go out, but really free time and drawing are the same for me.  Because I am a predominantly digital artist, it isn’t hard for me to keep contact with people through skype, AIM, facebook, tumblr, and e-mail while I work.  Sometimes, I get people on a call with a mic so I am more hands free.

Schoolwork tends to be computer based as well.  zBrush, Photoshop, MS Word, Flash, InDesign, etc.  Even so, I carry something like 3 different sized sketchbooks when I go out.  Also my commute into the city where my school is is about an hour on public transport, which allows me to take up things like knitting or playing Pokemon.  This quarter I actually have to do things like go to the museum to write papers and junk, so I got a membership.  So hey, that’s 20 bucks to go to the Asian Art Museum as much as I want for like a year.

The advice I can give on keeping a good balance though is prioritize the things you need to do before the things you want to do.  Break it down into blocks of time or set a day for each kind of work.  Also in terms of friends, I usually find myself starting conversations, just throwing out a few “hellos” and asking about how people’s days are and what they’re up to and stuff.  I had a bad anxiety about it for a while, but worked past it, so I’m able to keep regular contact with quite a few people.

Hopefully in the next few months I get to try balancing out a job or internship with all that.  Anyway, I know I tend to ramble or be wordy, but I hope that kind of answers your question there. X3d

Late Night Musings

reasonpeason:

Do you ever have those moments when you’re left alone with your thoughts…

Those moments where you convince yourself that some of the friends you’ve made must hate you even if the more reasonable explanation of “they’re just busy” or “they’ve never taken initiative for conversation” is readily available?

Then you think, they must be indifferent because you aren’t worth the energy and emotional effort to hate?  You don’t start panicking, but you just sit and make yourself sad.

And then you are left to stew so long in your self generated pit of diminished self worth that you forget none of it has actually been confirmed.  You forget you didn’t fuck up as monumentally as you thought and you say things that are unintentionally hurtful.  That you think your friends who you believe would never hurt anyone on purpose are hurting you because you are the one person that’s just too awful to be worth talking to or hanging out with, but at the same time, you are too sad and pathetic and clingy to cancel a friendship with.

Then they ask how you can think this.  And your brain short circuits.  You’re left to clutch your head and pull at your hair and cry while apologizing profusely.  The cycle starts over.  You know you assume the worst.  You know you make everything out to be worse than it actually is.

But just because you know how your mind works, it doesn’t mean it stops working that way.  Not for a second. 

I tend to find my thought patterns interesting when they stop happening and I start reflecting.  I recount these moments and then forget that perhaps it might be upsetting to other people to hear I actually think like this.

I’ve distanced myself that far from my own behavior that I find it more interesting from an objective standpoint, than upsetting as my actual experience when looking back at it.

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